And I post again.

I am feeling an excitement for ministry that I haven't felt in a long time. I really can't tell you why, I am just ready to get out there with people who think like me. People who could care less about anything but reaching people.

I think it's funny. The people I know that are like that are a small sub-culture who stick together. Even though we don't get together much we always know where each other is and what we are doing. Almost like a group of criminals in a Quintan Tarentino movie, coming together for the big job, but avoiding notoriety because it to risky to be in the lime light.
For us, giving of yourself is a lifestyle. You sacrifice family, friends, time, money, and everything else just because that's what we do; because that's what life is all about.
As I sit in church this evening I watched everyone excitedly worshiping and jeering on the pastor. I felt very distant and out of place. This is odd because these people are my friends, real friends. This church is my home and I love all the people there. Tonight, though, I just felt distant. About halfway through the service I remembered something that I heard once that finally truly made sense, "Passion without purpose is just fanaticism".
I don't want to just be another Jesus fanatic. My purpose is to preach the Gospel. The difference between me and most Christians is I know it.