Just wondering

What would you give to see what what you always wanted to see, do what you always wanted to do, go where you always wanted to go, be who you always wanted to be.

Probably not much, or you would already have done it.

I have always wanted to live my convictions, be a trailblazer. I have done that only as far as I can find certain approval associated with my actions. I don't want to care anymore. I am a dreamer, bound my passion and conviction. That's what defines me. Someone told me today that "I don't think like other people, my mind works differently". I think that was the greatest thing anyone has ever said about me.

Trailblazer. People will never approve of what they don't understand, and people can't understand what they have never experienced before. People will go places they have never been because I had the courage to go those places alone. The only fear I have is never experiencing what scares the hell out of me.

The conventional path has never set right with me in anything I do, so today I embrace the unconventional. I will revel in insanity cause it's the only thing that makes any sense.

How many five year olds could you take in a fight?

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Merry Kwanzaa!!!!

As an African American and Pan-African holiday celebrated by millions throughout the world African community, Kwanzaa brings a cultural message which speaks to the best of what it means to be African and human in the fullest sense. Given the profound significance Kwanzaa has for African Americans and indeed, the world African community, it is imperative that an authoritative source be made available to give an accurate and expansive account of its origins, concepts, values, symbols and practice.

Moreover, given the continued rapid growth of Kwanzaa and the parallel expanded discussion of it and related issues, an authoritative source which aids in both framing and informing the discussion is likewise of the greatest importance. Therefore, the central interest of this post is to provide information which reveals and reaffirms the integrity, beauty and expansive meaning of the holiday and thus aids in our approaching it with the depth of thought, dignity, and sense of specialness it deserves.

The holiday, then will of necessity, be engaged as an ancient and living cultural tradition which reflects the best of African thought and practice in its reaffirmation of the dignity of the human person in community and culture, the well-being of family and community, the integrity of the environment and our kinship with it, and the rich resource and meaning of a people's culture.

Dr. Maulana Karenga Creator of Kwanzaa Chair, The Organization Us Chair, The National Association of Kawaida Organizations (NAKO)

God bless all of my African brothers, and let us pray together that someday soon someone will find a way to honor the blessedness of my polish brothers as well.

Our America

In a time like this in America we tend to capsulate the world by what we understand about our personal culture. This book was the first time in my life I got a chance to see the world through someone else's personal culture. I read this when I was thirteen, and probably twenty times since then.
I wanted to bring this up because the ideas spawned from my perception of this book have had more of an influence on my life than anything I can remember including the Church.
Perception is reality. We are formed by the things that we cannot control. These are ideas that are foreign to the american, christian church, but vital to it understanding Christ's simplicity.
Our differences are what bind us together. The one thing that every person in the world has in common: we are all different.

UFC 79

If you don't already know I freakin' love the UFC. Well, guess what people. Yesterday at 2:02 pm EST. I received via mail my tickets for UFC 79 - Nemesis. Yeahh Baby!!!

Name:	Wanderlei Silva
Height:	5' 11" (180 cm)
Weight:	205 (93 kg)
Record:	31-7-1

The Axe Murderer

VS.

Name:	Chuck Liddell
Height:	6' 2" (188 cm)
Weight:	205 (93 kg)
Record:	20-4-0

The Ice Man

Strength

How do you know what strength is, if you have never pushed yourself to the point of breaking?
Getting to the point when you have given everything (physical, mental, and spiritual) and then you break through and find you have more than you can possibly imagine left. With each successive breaking point comes a greater revelation of who you are. Making your own rules, realizing you are bigger than anything that exists.
Obstacles are no longer that, they are simply situations that you use to accomplish tasks. All things become pawns in the game you were created to conquer. So strong that others begin to find their strength in you.
You can't know until you have been tested by you, creating a standard that only you can live up to.
People say you should know your limits, I think you should just get to know yourself.

Run Forrest Run

Tonight at church we had a small wave of "runners". I hope you know what I am talking about. At any given point in a "charismatic"-type service, when things get excitable one or more people will break off running a lap or two around the sanctuary.

I just think this whole display ironically parallels the church of today.
You get so excited about the things of God that you get up and run around in circles and then immediately sit on your butt and wait for someone to excite you enough to get up and run in circles again, all the while never leaving the building. Think about it.

And I post again.

I am feeling an excitement for ministry that I haven't felt in a long time. I really can't tell you why, I am just ready to get out there with people who think like me. People who could care less about anything but reaching people.

I think it's funny. The people I know that are like that are a small sub-culture who stick together. Even though we don't get together much we always know where each other is and what we are doing. Almost like a group of criminals in a Quintan Tarentino movie, coming together for the big job, but avoiding notoriety because it to risky to be in the lime light.
For us, giving of yourself is a lifestyle. You sacrifice family, friends, time, money, and everything else just because that's what we do; because that's what life is all about.
As I sit in church this evening I watched everyone excitedly worshiping and jeering on the pastor. I felt very distant and out of place. This is odd because these people are my friends, real friends. This church is my home and I love all the people there. Tonight, though, I just felt distant. About halfway through the service I remembered something that I heard once that finally truly made sense, "Passion without purpose is just fanaticism".
I don't want to just be another Jesus fanatic. My purpose is to preach the Gospel. The difference between me and most Christians is I know it.