Run Forrest Run

Tonight at church we had a small wave of "runners". I hope you know what I am talking about. At any given point in a "charismatic"-type service, when things get excitable one or more people will break off running a lap or two around the sanctuary.

I just think this whole display ironically parallels the church of today.
You get so excited about the things of God that you get up and run around in circles and then immediately sit on your butt and wait for someone to excite you enough to get up and run in circles again, all the while never leaving the building. Think about it.

And I post again.

I am feeling an excitement for ministry that I haven't felt in a long time. I really can't tell you why, I am just ready to get out there with people who think like me. People who could care less about anything but reaching people.

I think it's funny. The people I know that are like that are a small sub-culture who stick together. Even though we don't get together much we always know where each other is and what we are doing. Almost like a group of criminals in a Quintan Tarentino movie, coming together for the big job, but avoiding notoriety because it to risky to be in the lime light.
For us, giving of yourself is a lifestyle. You sacrifice family, friends, time, money, and everything else just because that's what we do; because that's what life is all about.
As I sit in church this evening I watched everyone excitedly worshiping and jeering on the pastor. I felt very distant and out of place. This is odd because these people are my friends, real friends. This church is my home and I love all the people there. Tonight, though, I just felt distant. About halfway through the service I remembered something that I heard once that finally truly made sense, "Passion without purpose is just fanaticism".
I don't want to just be another Jesus fanatic. My purpose is to preach the Gospel. The difference between me and most Christians is I know it.

My Frustration or Ours?

Bla bla bla bla. That's pretty much all I need to say. I mean that's all people really hear isn't it? I don't know, you tell me. It seems to me that there is a ridiculous indecency in the selfishness we as christians (aka kings aka priests aka called aka anointed aka perfect aka everything the world needs) have accepted. Well, don't pay attention. Your just broke, sick, beat down, and deceiving yourself, so just keep on thinking that your crappy situation will somehow magically disappear because you are believing that God is going to be able to work everything out dispite the fact that you are spending you life achieving your pursuits and completely disregarding the work that God has called each and everyone of us to.
Be a Christian. For the love of God, be a Christian. I mean seriously people it's not about you. Everything that Christ did was for everyone but Him, and yet we think being a Christian is about our convictions and what we believe. We are so backwards. Jesus didn't stand apart because of His convictions, He had convictions as a result of His compassion for people.
Grow up. Grow up. Grow up.
If you think that is to harsh, Grow up.

Haiti

I filmed and edited this short video from my trip to haiti last week. I will post the back story later.