When I was in college a friend of mine would walk up to me ever so often and say, "What is God telling you this week". It has been a long time since I have really pondered this question, but this week is different. God is telling me something quite specific this week. It is something that I used to tell myself often, but have neglected to embrace for quite some time.
I AM AN IDIOT.
I am not comparing myself to the people around me, rather I am comparing what I do know with what I do not know. For all that I am I am nothing, only what He is capable of doing through me. My short commings become blatantly evident in my inability to produce. What I am capable of and what I will actually allow myself to do are two totally different things. An expert with wisdom has to see that he is limited to his own ability and understanding. I am not even an expert.
I do have one thing though. Only I can see it so it is probably not very impressive to you. I can't really decribe it in words so that won't help you either, but it is the biggest and most vauable thing I own. It's my Dream. God gave me this dream that is so big it is hard for me to even think about sometimes without feeling overwhelmed. I flat out don't know how to get there and I just remembered that I am an idiot.
I have been trying to hard to figure it out while neglecting the path that is right in front of me. I want to learn and I know now that only my pride is standing in my way.
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Pretty deep thoughts for an idiot. :)
I often come face-to-face with how little I know, too. What do people without this "crutch" do when they realize that they, in and of themselves, are inadequate?
Oh, thank you Jesus for the life-changing power of your grace.
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